Fluid Diet...

I'm in Ohio visiting the family for the holiday weekend and the jet lag is killing me. But I have a self made solution. I'm going on a liquid diet for the next few days, which means I need to decide which fluids I want. OJ? - no. Milk? - no. Instead, how about something a little (or should I say) a lot stronger? Having said that, the nice thing about Las Vegas & Ohio is that you can buy liquor in a **lot** more places than PA. To add to the mountain of things I don't miss about PA, you can also add the "State Store" system. For those of you that don't know, the state store was the only place you could buy liquor. Now I can buy it @ Rite Aid. I guess you could say they sell more than 1 kind of medicine these days.

Flying out...

Well, it's almost time to leave for McCarran airport for the flight to Ohio for the holiday. I really wanted to stay in Vegas for the holiday, but with my dad dying I pretty much have to go back every holiday from now on. Labor Day isn't so bad in Ohio, but Thanksgiving and Xmas suck due to all the snow they get. Oh well, at least I'll still have internet access.

Of class reunions...

I read a quote from Sebastian Bach & I think it pretty well sums up why I'll never go to a class reunion:

""I think of SKID ROW the same way you might think of picking up your
high-school yearbook. You have affection for what happened 30 years ago,
but you look at the yearbook and you go, 'Oh, cool,' and you shut it,
and it's today.


I don't know those people. It's not sports. It's not like a team."

Bury it, then Live...

Wow, almost 3 months since my last post and a lot has changed. I left PA in late June and got here in Vegas for July 4th. All I have to say is this place knows how to party! When I left PA I left apathetic, I neither loved nor hated it anymore, I just knew I'd never go back again. Finny thing is that after almost 2 months I really don't miss it at all. When I left it behind I left all the misery, all the people, and all the b.s. behind with it. When I planned to move out here last year I should've done it. I would've avoided a lot of crap I didn't have to go through. But hindsight is always 20/20 isn't it?

Moving Out...

The last week of my life has been hell. The only thing I can say is that "Watch what you ask for, you just might get it" is true. There's nothing quite as harsh as being buried before the funeral ever happens, much the the passing. I need to get out of here and start over fresh. New places, new faces, and all that stuff. The end of the month, I'm out of here...

Lyrics stuck in my head...

"Save Me" - Damageplan

Save me from myself I call out
But no one hears my plea
Burn my candle fast from both ends
Nightmares grow from dreams

You don't know, you can't see thrugh my eyes
So you don't know me
You don't know whats going through my mind
But can you help me

Save me from myself if you ever really cared
Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared


"Through These Eyes" - Lynch Mob

Morning comes too soon
Another day unfolds and the rains are cold
That fall on you
I wanna tell you
But I can't seem to get it
Can't seem to get it right
Oh, it's killing me
I realize that it cuts me deep inside
When I can feel in my soul
This empty whole you took from me
Cause on and on
You keep tellin' me the things that make you smile
If I could hold you somehow
And show you now
That the tears in vain will never ease the pain

Oh, I, I can only see
As far as you
You're never to far away
Oh my eyes can only see
What I feel for you

I could fly the heavens
Although the distance may be far
I'm just one dream away
And the tears will say
That there's no turning back
Quiet in my thoughts
Safe within myself
I reach out to a time
When you laid by my side
And oh how it felt so right
Don't you even worry now

Through these eyes

Intensity that grows within me
Reflections of my pain
I'll create or I'll destroy
But either way it's always in my veins

You don't know, you can't see through my eyes
So you don't know me
You don't know whats going through my mind

But can you help me

Save me from myself if you ever really cared
Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared

Save me... from me...

Feelin' It...

Save me from myself I call out
But no one hears my plea
Burn my candle fast from both ends
Nightmares grow from dreams

You don't know, you can't see through my eyes
So you don't know me
You don't know what's going through my mind
But can you help me

Save me from myself if you ever really cared
Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared

Intensity that grows within me
Reflections of my pain
I'll create or I'll destroy
But either way it's always in my veins

You don't know, you can't see through my eyes
So you don't know me
You don't know what's going through my mind
But can you help me

Save me from myself if you ever really cared
Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared

Save me from myself, if you ever really cared
Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared

Save me from myself, if you ever really cared
Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared

Save me from myself, if you ever really cared
Save me from myself, tell me you're not scared

Save me... from me... x5

Save me....x 2

Save me... from me

Save me....