Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Mid-week reguritations.
“I can't help the way I am
There's no trust and there's no end”
– “Revolution is My Name” by Pantera
I forgot to mention something else in my last post, not only did I play my new guitar – I also watched one of my favorite TV show – Intervention. I don’t know if I like it because it validates my partying ways, or if I just feel kinship with the people on the show. Maybe it just makes me feel better because I have a glass or bottle in my hand rather than a crack pipe.
But I see them same thing over & over on the show – something really bad has happened to all of us that have our addictions. Whether it’s a broken home, broken heart, abuse, or whatever the cause – it was the trigger. And who’s to say self medicating is worse than taking some prescription drug?
I’ll use my situation as an example. Several years ago I was put on high blood pressure medication. After taking it for a while I had a blood test done, which revealed liver damage. It was only then that I was asked about my drinking habits, which I was totally open about.
And it was then I was told that the high blood pressure med (mixed with my drinking), can cause/accelerate liver damage. So taking the drug got my blood pressure down, but is eating my liver alive. And after having way too many arguments with my Dr. about my drinking, nothing changed. And anyway, I don’t take my high blood pressure
I’ll be the first to admit that I am forever thankful that I was given anti-anxiety and anti-depressants. No one can live like that for long, the human body can only take so much stress - ipso facto. But as far as the drinking goes, I told my doctor that when/if they can develop a drug to erase heartbreak, I’ll be the first to take it. But since they haven’t, and probably won’t I’ll do it my way.
Who knows? Maybe I’ll have my own episode of Intervention.
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