Cutting Weight.

It's a new year and changes are going to be made. Since high school, most of my friends are no longer that - friends. Some just lost interest, and others don't want to watch me continue down the path I'm on. I have to face facts, if I knew someone who was terminally ill - I might have to back out myself. I wouldn't want to watch them decline and then finally pass on. That's not how I would want to remember them, and it would be too painful anyway. So I understand why some of them have chosen to not be friends anymore.

But I'll think about them from time to time, but there won't be anymore text messaging or emails asking them to meet me for dinner. Besides, I spend a lot of time @ work and the people there generally like me. My supervisor is a great guy and a good friend, our V.P. is the same - great guy and someone I can go to with anything. The people @ work aren't just friends, they're my family.


And since most of my family if 250 miles away, it's a blessing for me to have them in my life. Not many people can say that about the people they work with. So to those of you that have decided to keep your distance - that's fine. Thank you for at some point being a friend. It's not that I don't care anymore, it's just that I have have the energy to spend thinking about someone who no longer thinks about me. I've tried contacting former friends to no avail, and I just refuse to do it anymore. But even if they didn't contact me back, I hope something I've written, texted, or said, took hold. That's all I can ask in the end, to leave some sort of mark with my former friends - hopefully not all scars.