Oh God - The Fu*king Pain!!!

Talk about being fuct, this morning got off to a bad start. Not more than 5 minutes ago, the unthinkable happened. I saw a picture of Michele (yes my Michele), and it stabbed me right in the heart. I can't describe the absolute torture I'm feeling right now-it's completely without description. But what I can tell you is that I was totally unprepared and it's overwhelming for me right now. I don't know how I'm going to get through today, it's going to be rough. I feel like I did 7+ years ago, like my heart was ripped out, thrown on the floor, and then burned to ashes. God give me the strength to get through this yet one more time.