Tonight is the most content I've been in ages, I'm euphoric even! My work life has gone into the crapper, my personal life is me living like a hermit, and there's not much more looking good. Las Vegas keeps crying my name, and I keep listening. But maybe my isolation is a good thing, since anyone who gives a damn about me can't really see the ugliness I live in. And the other just choose to refuse the reality of what my life has become - including most of my family.
But it is what it is - and I made it so, and I accept all responsibility for what I've done. No none is my scapegoat - I own up to it all. But one thing I have decided is to go back to my 2nd family - my motorcycling family and more specifically my Harley family. They accept me for all my faults - warts and all, just as some of my family does. The only other person that has shown my unconditional acceptance in my 40 years is Tina - and God Bless her & her family. She's seen my ups & downs, and has been there through it all. I can't express in words my appreciation for her friendship.
But the vicodin, beers, and pills are taking their toll and I need to wind down before I finally crash for the night.
Friday, January 9, 2009
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