"Well, Monday the interviews started (and ended), but not because they hired someone. The first guy that came in John didn't care for, the second guy who came we both liked, the 3rd guy has some issues, and the 4th & 5th people canceled. I say the 3rd guy has issues because he's had assault charges, disorderly conduct charges, a DUI, & resisting arrest charges. So they have yet to hire anyone, let alone schedule a 2nd round of interviews.
Being buried in work with no help and management dragging their feet, having to go to the doctor for a checkup ($75 - that I can't spare, needing an eye exam ($700-$800, which again I don't have), having to get my tax returns so I declare bankruptcy, and being off my anti-depressants for 2 months has almost made me leave. I almost walked out of work today and didn't go back.
At this point I'm considering not continuing to take my anti-anxiety pills since I'll have to fork out $75 an office visit every now & then for something I've been taking for years now. I'm just burnt-out, exhausted in every possible way imaginable."
There's going to be a full scale mutiny @ work someday. People in other departments are as equally fed up as my supervisor & I are, maybe even more so. I need to start doing some things to prepare myself to go back to Las Vegas, such as get boxes to put stuff in & clean out my storage unit. My leaving is still a few months off, but I think this time it's going to be good for me. Las Vegas has a way of washing you clean, allowing you to start with a clean slate and not be the person you were before. Things here will never be the way I want them to be & it's time I finally fully accept that fact.
I've finally accepted the fact that the only woman I want to be married to is long gone back down the road and the rest of my life will consist of me & me only. When I get back to Vegas it'll be time to buy another Harley and get back to my motorcycling family. The only group of people who have ever accepted me as I am, the only people who have stuck by me through thick and thin. And God knows there's been a lot of thin in the past few years.
But Tina has stayed by me for 15 years, and Michele did as long as she possibly could until the pain I put on her & Brit got to be too much. I'll never blame her for anything - period. So Las Vegas - get ready. In a few months I'll be back, and the party can start off where it left off. Who love ya Las Vegas? I do!
